Happy Christmas, I Suppose

by Ardie Collins

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1.
A hush runs through this house, it's growing louder You clinch inside your coat against the winter But all I can assume is that your pride was on the line All I can assume is that you're just taking some time And as we find ourselves in other worlds again Another year divided by trivial events I remember when you turned to me to say There's always Christmas I hung up all this sparkly crap for us again It glistens in the dark December night But all I can assume is that you're denying it's December You are just as stubborn as I remember And as we find ourselves in other worlds again Another year divided trivial events I remember when you turned to me to say There's always Christmas I'm sure that this one beer won't go and hurt someone I can't believe the pub turned into a song But all I can assume is that your pride was on the line All I can assume is that you're just taking some time And as we find ourselves in other worlds again Another year divided trivial events I remember when you turned to me to say There's always Christmas
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So many lights in this alabaster night Where the darkest parts have all just drained away, So many voices, I can hear the past make noises But it’s getting harder to know what they say But this street can hear the call of Christmas Day If I lose my place in this rough and tumble race That is filling me with horror and dismay Will you pick me up and make sure I don’t give up? I never ask for any help in any way But there’s just something in my bones this Christmas Day I’ve always said that the voices in our heads Were deliberately leading us astray But that’s a lie, a filthy lie They’re just figuring it all out along the way Just like everybody else on Christmas Day I went for a walk through the evening song I went for a drive through the crumbling day I went for a swim in your lie, “there’s nothing wrong” I have vowed to turn this ‘round on Christmas Day I have swallowed all my pride on Christmas Day I have run to win you back on Christmas Day I don’t say it that much I don’t say it enough I don’t say it at all But I hope it’s enough I love you, you know.
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Hard To Say 03:46
I can see it unfold, maybe this year we'll work some of the creases out No more of those blinkered old sneers, what did we even quarrel about? But now the movie's up loud, we've run out of things to say We're too hard on ourselves, put pressure on one single day 'Cause you found a home in the way that my voice cracks when there's something I find hard to say Come on in, How've you been, Lovely day We'll stifle our thoughts for fear that they might make a sound And we'll gorge on the day, the smacking of lips getting loud 'Til our bellies are full and our hearts have climbed up to our mouth And we'll nap by the fire, act like nothing is dragging us down You found a home in the way that my voice cracks when there's something I find hard to say Come on in, How've you been, Lovely day You found a home in the way that my voice cracks when winter just steals it away Welcome Home, How've you been, Lovely day
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We'll start afresh and let it go we were together and alone Inside a one-track frame of mind that made our thoughtfulness unkind To every other soul we know, I swear that we were promised snow The kind that clings to paving stones and makes the sky a smiling glow By now a change is what we need another way to move and breath Another town to float around with fresher sights and fresher sounds So Happy Christmas, I suppose, I hope that you have one of those And Happy New Year while I'm here, we'll become lost inside a cheer As all the voices swill around and make a booming joyful sound Of remembering what they've got and forgetting all that rot And the creak on the stairs will always sound the same Knowing he was there but not saying anything Our limbs are always tighter in the winter Ready to be thawed out in the spring And just as change is a good thing so is how we try to sing A whining bawl made out of words that squack like petulant blackbirds And all the tunes come reeling out 'round a piano that we found How is it that a slice of time can hold a place so high That we are wrapped inside a moment like a movie's closing lines So Happy Christmas, I suppose, I hope that you have one of those And Happy New Year while I'm here, we'll become lost inside a cheer As all the voices swill around and make a booming joyful sound Of remembering what they've got and forgetting all that rot And the creak on the stairs will always sound the same Knowing he was there but not saying anything Our limbs are always tighter in the winter Ready to be thawed out in the spring But for now we say Happy Christmas, I suppose, I hope that you have one of those And Happy New Year while I'm here, we'll become lost inside a cheer As all the voices swill around and make a booming joyful sound Of remembering what they've got and forgetting all that rot
5.
Hogmanay 02:32
Too bad you had it all, you lost the hunger You stared out at the stars with little wonder I am lost for words again as I am tired and among friends Another year just ends And so we’re sprawled like this is war Old toy soldiers on the floor “They had it in for us,” you said “You have a lack of trust,” I said “Hogmannay is not the night for your strange, misguided fight. No, let’s just kiss instead” Losing half our hearts to rust Using every hour up I am lost for words again as I am tired and among friends Another year just ends “We’ll take the same again.”
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Silent night, holy night All is calm, all is bright We stayed close as the storm grew outside Buttered toast and a painful goodbye Pull together a smile Pull together a smile I can't speak, I feel weak Went for glib, came out bleak If we're sinking all that's left is hope Make a raft of it, see if it floats We'll find ourselves lost at sea We'll find ourselves lost at sea Press on still, lungs to fill Distant words, linger still They echo through from when you leaned in, They say, "This world's a bastard, but don't let it win. Hide the whole deck up your sleeve. Hide the whole deck up your sleeve." Quench this thirst with sounds and words Lies creep in to aid this blur I dream of a time when I'll dream in my sleep Make my voice crack to seem tortured and deep In truth I prefer your deceit In truth I prefer your deceit Silent night, holy night All is calm, all is bright We stayed close as the storm grew outside Buttered toast and a painful goodbye Pull together a smile Pull together a smile

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released December 15, 2012

All songs written and recorded by some guy called Ardie Collins except for Hide The Whole Deck (Silent Night) which has vocals from Christina Neuwirth.

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Ardie Collins Cardiff, UK

I'm a songwriter from Cardiff, Wales.

In 2011 I released a song a day. In 2014 I released a song a week. I haven't been up to much since.

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