Caught gawping at the monolith
You always were a realist
So you’re hiring an apologist
For everything you’ve done
Thought I was at the finish line
I’m begging for some peace of mind
A little something anodyne
I won’t bother anyone
The back and forth and then the back again
It really starts to make the decades blend
You feel the presence of a distant friend
Just like the blazing sun
Another day another real blow
My reflection’s on the wane, you know
I caught it in a shop window
Thought it could be anyone

This life was never mine
It belongs to the hills and the pines
And deepest time

Maybe you get used to it
The way that memories can dart and flit
And then rebuilding again bit by bit
Surrounded by a glow
So many horrors that you couldn’t choose
Lost the whole week to the rolling news
There’s just something that you can’t refuse
About an all-time low
And I’m getting way too old for this
I think I need a year to decompress
Or a touch of sleep paralysis
Yeah, you just never know
And there’s faces at the broken fence
And they’re smirking in their innocence
And they never ask for recompense
For how August comes then goes

This life was never mine
It belongs to the coves and the tides
And deepest time

My heart is hardly in the mood
And it’s tired of all the platitudes
But I can feign some gratitude
Along with everyone
I was getting overconfident
I guess that there’s a first for everything
But can’t you tell my scruples come from
Weariness and love?
A little scrutiny was overdue
I never thought that you would see it through
How you tore up every rule and law and code
You could think of
But you were caught out by the zero-sum
Of a contradictory utterance
Like the way “the minimum”
Is also “not enough”

This life was never mine
It belongs to the hills and the pines
And to deepest time